Emotional

Suddenly I remembered like, how I used to feel those emotions, intensely

These few months back,

I barely experienced those kind of emotions anymore

Yes, cause i'm on something else

But it's a gift though

Being able to feel is a beautiful gift

Because with it, we can have that empathy towards other

We can care for each other

We can be more kind, more gentle

Less harsh etc etc

It is what makes us human

Robots got no feeling

Thus, making them like super duper efficient thingy,

Yet they lack one most precious, valuable thing for us human

And that is, a heart that can feel

But why do we, humans have to feel and go through all of these storms of emotions?

Take a moment and ponder

There must be reasons/reason why

There must be

And may that intense emotion that you are feeling, makes you closer

Closer

And

Closer

To the One who creates it ♡

another suprise

 this time around

i guess it right

tak tahu kenapa bila baca hint tu je terus rasa macam

it's that one

patutlah selalu rasa nak tunda-tunda plan tu

so that's it

baru je cakap pasal word 'musibah' semalam

harini kena kat diri sendiri

semoga dapat redha

kata nak jadi "راضية مرضية" kan?

ingat, nilai awak tak ditentukan oleh sesiapa,

tapi nilai diri awak sendiri

that's not a goal

it's an instrument

kena selalu ingat tu

and it's not about who and when

but why and how

kena betulkan niat selalu

semoga Allah redha

terima kasih Allah :')

Sprout

 "i wanted to"

"why?"

"because I want to grow"

"do you think you are fit enough?"

"I can't wait forever right?"

"I mean, I've had enough of that 'caving' moment and I've told myself that after that period of time, I should be thinking on moving forward"

"yes, I told myself that"

silence.

sigh.

"what matters most is that, he's willing to embrace my flaws and be my support through my recovering journey. that's all"

"whoever that person might be"

"aaaah... just the thought of it make me wanna cry"

"thought of what?"

"solemnization..."

"why?"

"cause it marks that a man is willing to care for her, for as long as he could"

"in the end, what I wanted the most is for someone to accept me, just the way I am"

"someone who is willing to go through thick and thin together"

"who will cherish me for who i am"

"somehow, that sound selfish"

"i know"

sigh

"you're good thou"

"but i am more concerned about him accepting my flaws, rather than that 'perfect' picture of me"

"and willingness to help me grow"

"I think a year is quite enough for me"

"honestly I'm quite scared, but..."

"i just want it to be a flawsome journey ahead."

"i just want to grow"

pray for me