"i wanted to"
"why?"
"because I want to grow"
"do you think you are fit enough?"
"I can't wait forever right?"
"I mean, I've had enough of that 'caving' moment and I've told myself that after that period of time, I should be thinking on moving forward"
"yes, I told myself that"
silence.
sigh.
"what matters most is that, he's willing to embrace my flaws and be my support through my recovering journey. that's all"
"whoever that person might be"
"aaaah... just the thought of it make me wanna cry"
"thought of what?"
"solemnization..."
"why?"
"cause it marks that a man is willing to care for her, for as long as he could"
"in the end, what I wanted the most is for someone to accept me, just the way I am"
"someone who is willing to go through thick and thin together"
"who will cherish me for who i am"
"somehow, that sound selfish"
"i know"
sigh
"you're good thou"
"but i am more concerned about him accepting my flaws, rather than that 'perfect' picture of me"
"and willingness to help me grow"
"I think a year is quite enough for me"
"honestly I'm quite scared, but..."
"i just want it to be a flawsome journey ahead."
"i just want to grow"
pray for me
