at this age,
I feels clueless
of what I should be
what should I do
maybe because everything happens at the same time,
coincidentally......
nah, nothing is coincident in this world
everything are placed perfectly,
only then, that pieces will resembles a complete puzzle
then it'll make sense to us
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graduated,
the pandemic,
me feeling lost over what to do next,
post working-from-home phase etc
watching my friends' life update (married, work, study etc)
and all those influences I got from watching "how girls should be" in the social media thing,
i mean how girls should be working, women empowerment bla bla bla
all of these makes me think a lot these days,
but actually I'm confused of what I've been thinking
maybe because I think about many different things,
and I don't see where it connects
haha
maybe it connects at this point,
I'm actually lost about myself,
like, which path do I take now?
should I further study?
should I think about marriage?
should I work?
should I earn some money?
or should I just focus on serving/helping my family instead?
I just don't know,
because every path seems to be obscure
while time is precious
hello I'm 24 already
another one year and I'll reach suku abad already
yeah it's not really about the numbers right,
but 20's age is the golden age
and I shouldn't be wasting it
and, I'm not that good at balancing between responsibilities
so I don't really think that it's a good idea for me to do many at once
hmmmmmmmmmmm
maybe that's just the beauty of it,
like an abstract artwork,
vague, yet beautiful
waiting to be explored
pray for me please :')
