24th & PKPP

at this age,

I feels clueless
of what I should be

what should I do





maybe because everything happens at the same time,
coincidentally......






nah, nothing is coincident in this world


everything are placed perfectly,
only then, that pieces will resembles a complete puzzle
then it'll make sense to us



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graduated,
the pandemic,
me feeling lost over what to do next,
post working-from-home phase etc

watching my friends' life update (married, work, study etc)

and all those influences I got from watching "how girls should be" in the social media thing,
i mean how girls should be working, women empowerment bla bla bla


all of these makes me think a lot these days,
but actually I'm confused of what I've been thinking



maybe because I think about many different things,
and I don't see where it connects
haha



maybe it connects at this point,
I'm actually lost about myself,

like, which path do I take now?
should I further study?
should I think about marriage?
should I work?
should I earn some money?

or should I just focus on serving/helping my family instead?


I just don't know,
because every path seems to be obscure
while time is precious
hello I'm 24 already
another one year and I'll reach suku abad already


yeah it's not really about the numbers right,
but 20's age is the golden age
and I shouldn't be wasting it



and, I'm not that good at balancing between responsibilities
so I don't really think that it's a good idea for me to do many at once
hmmmmmmmmmmm






maybe that's just the beauty of it,
like an abstract artwork,
vague, yet beautiful
waiting to be explored

pray for me please :')